GuardianNeverWinter

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questioning my existence by GuardianNeverWinter, literature

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questioning my existence

On currently a few weeks from starting my junior year of high school, turning 17 soon. But seems like not much matters to me, Think I have manic depression illness and social anxiety. I have one friend who is too social for me. I think a lot about death and don't think I'll kill myself unless to save someone special. I don't have any outlets. often times I'm very critical of myself and I think I suffer from being a perfectionist. I know my life isn't as bad as others. But I feel so pitiful all the time. I had a first girlfriend who's relationship got cut short because her family moved when I was in middle school, I miss her constantly even th

Reminiscing my first and only by GuardianNeverWinter, literature

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Reminiscing my first and only

I feel like my heart is in the wrong place. I couldn't feel more useless, but I think it's in the right place, because I still have hope for me and you. Although every time I think of you I couldn't feel more heartless and the smell of sulfur and asphalt comes to mind, but all I remember about you is your face, more noticeably your smile. I will meet you again, because I have never forgotten (our love).

What a Day by GuardianNeverWinter, literature

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What a Day

What a day A friend lost, or so they say, it had no feeling when they had said it. But as time went by, it hit me. I didn't really care, but I know I do for what is beyond me, screams inside my heart that it is not true. My inside solely believing to this instant that she was indeed my friend. And now nothing, it is lost, but i do not want to believe it, such a delicate person they are. I want to die, knowing that they are wanting nothing of me. But such thought is foolish, I will strive to prepare myself, I know one day fate will show its self to me and I will be given what ever I get. I will strive my hardest, I will be hers, as I have be

Another day by GuardianNeverWinter, literature

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Another day

Another day Wake up, Stare at ceiling, For a few hours, Keep staring, At the blankness, Go back, To Sleep Wake up, Jump to the side, Run to, The door, To see, It's a door, Open it, Peek through, See, A cat, Run, For, It, The demonic cat, The cat that sleeps on your head while you sleep making you have horrable nighmares about contemplating fluid dynamics while taking a shower. Pick up, Hug cat, Go to sleep. *Cat sleeps on head* Another Day Wake up, Stare at ceiling.....

The Darkness, Descent by GuardianNeverWinter, literature

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The Darkness, Descent

"I see you came, I shall be you guide, I have awaited your arrival for many deaths", the shadowed figure, descends the dark spiral stair case. I look around, the walls are spotless, never the less you descends the staircase. You walk for what seems like hours, finally you see a crimson light flickering, next to you see the shadowed figure, you run eagerly at him, but stop short. He draws a flameburg and stabs you, you fall to the ground, he falls to cradle you your last moments, he says,"If only this were a different life.....", you fade in to the darkness around you. -End

Im thinking of you by GuardianNeverWinter, literature

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Im thinking of you

Another sleepless night, I think of why i didn't work out, maybe its because your not here andall i ever was to you was a toy, to tease me, your freinds harrass me it never ends does it, i still love you, and you can't tell me other wise, i know joey better than you he knows notheing less than i know, this is truly pathetic grow up little child... then maybe we might be able to play

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Aug 29, 1988
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Deviant for 15 years
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I believe in beauty, I will loath the beast till i become him. What a day that will be

I am dead or so I feel, I can't forget your face it's the key to the past I never want to forget and after all this time it isn't nothing, It;s my hope that keeps me alive for another tomorrow, I have never stopped loving you. You are the idiot, but I am the even bigger one.

Will you let me ask you how your day was?

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GuardianNeverWinter

Feb 11, 2017

Expect more activity, I remembered I had an account.

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GuardianNeverWinter

Oct 19, 2012

Finding my devart account

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I hope I can get in contact with one of my friends that I've lost contact with I've moved on but I still have a bond with them that I can't explain. Even after many years I have not forgotten you. I'd love to catch up if you'd be interested.

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GuardianNeverWinter

Oct 19, 2012

Have been gone for a long time again

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It's not like I've been back in a  while but I guess I'll try and up date my journal as much a possible. So far I'm graduating a semester early in high school, I have a pregnant fiancee, whom I will be marring this year. I'm going to college in spring. I've quit the league of legends teams I was on. To reduce my playing time and I'm getting ready for more job application. I haven't been morbidly depressed since I found my fiancee. But her and my mother's pragmatic relationship will cause me to have an aneurism one day. Other than that, I'm just trying to set a daily routine for myself and getting in the habit of doing things. Actually taking